nothing but i am
She left the earth how she wanted, walking into the ocean as the stars above sparkled in their preciousness. She hoped to join them, to transform into something that burned with a power a millions miles away from here. Her departure may be one of sadness, but it was by her own choosing. It was her own way to transform.
‘Nothing but I am’ follows the life of Eleanor, as read through her journal in her final days on the planet. It washes over her hopes and dreams, loves and despairs at the hands of fate and the disturbance of states that begin to corrode her life. Her death imprints itself on a police officer trying to unpick meaning in her demise as she goes through her words and thoughts left in her journal.
The snow rarely falls, and the coldness rarely touches the bones. Yet this is the wish of one who lives on the equator, longing for the white dusting. When it comes, it can be black or white. Light or dark. Little snowflakes created by circumstance. Too long has a black snow fallen, for once the real frozen landscape is coming.
Real snow is about to descend.
Failures washed over his workbench, dripping down his life. His quest to find the secret of changing lead into gold had consumed and shaken his soul. Yet he had merely strayed from the path he was meant to travel, clouded by the misty haze of obsession. When a little book comes into his life, it realigns his fate and lets the alchemy truly begin.
‘Alchemy’ is a story about a man’s evolution at the end of his life and how his preciousness is valued, not in the gold he makes; but the changes that he conjures. Strewn around poems that lead from dreams to magic, and prayers to happiness; the story navigates from despair to adjustment in surreal and magical landscapes.
leviathan: of the soul
Lurking deep within all of us, even those familiar to the stormy seas, dwells the leviathan. The monster in the soul which takes hold when the sun is so easily burnt out. It is the bringer of the darkness, the chaos and the nightmares. Threatening your little raft of life that is cast out into the world.
Journey here onto the sea of poetry and short stories that explore the waves of emotions, horror and sadness. But keep an eye on the horizon for that little splinter of hope that breaks from the sky.
‘Leviathan: Of the soul’ is a poetry and short story collection covering topics of death, mental illness, suicide and redemption. Hold on against its onslaught.
the gospel of no one
Hidden under the base of a statue of Mother Mary, the current pastor of St. Sebastian’s church discovers a small tightly bound book, the contents of which explain the demise of the previous Father, Father Nikolas and the confessions of those who frequented the church throughout his time there. A journey through pain, doubt and forgiveness; the book opens the eyes and hearts, asking everyone for their own confession.
‘The Gospel of no one’ is a hybrid novel mixing fiction and poetry, orbiting religious imagery and spirituality. Hope, mixed with the horror of being only human.
impermanence of things
Nothing truly last forever. We dance on the fingertips of the ephemeral looking back to our footsteps in the sand. Along this journey, we encounter fables of construction in our mind and stories we wish to tell.
A collection of short stories that take you back in time, statically to the present and forward deep within your own heart. From the sadness surrounding The Astronaut to the evil that dwells at Anaxbly House in Souls in the Wind; we come full circle to the beautifully damaged understanding of Imperfect, impermanent, and incomplete, where acceptance of imperfection is the liberation we all desire.
Twenty one short stories make up this composed and compressed novel, all beautifully damaged.
echoes in space
North of the North Pole, you see the Pisces rising. Breaking the horizon like the eye of God. Meaningless words uttered in constellation, bringing us closer to the end. The black hole within all of us, threatening to devour and place us somewhere else in time. Travel into this corroding galaxy with poems and insights of birth, life and death.
A final spatial opus while the galaxies drip down and slip out of view. Echoes in Space is a collection of poetry designed to take you out of this gravity’s pull and allow your imagination to voyage around the stars, touching on the spiritual, the familiar and the most alien of emotions.
keep it together
The summer of 1977, in the middle of a blazing heat wave, the estranged children of the wealthy and eccentric Van-Blacks all gather at the infamous Nova-Manor to discuss recent family developments over Fourth of July weekend. Their father is dying, and now wishes to build some bridges with his children before he shuffles off the mortal coil. However, things begin to take an unusual twist with the arrival of Miss T., a Jamaican fortune teller who sweeps in under an air of mystery to perform a séance.
Secrets and truths slowly unravel, helped along by the butler Mr Perkins, who knows more about the past then perhaps he should. Ghosts, storms & mysteries in the attic all explode over the holiday weekend along with the fireworks. With a body on their hands & new truths revealed, they are all forced to question whether they can live with the knowledge that someone they love is a capable of murder. Independence comes at a price, & not everything is what it seems as they try to keep it together.
A well-travelled heart sees it all, from street to street and wall to wall.
Soaking in life’s wonderment, from euphoric highs to the deep laments.
This heart is stained, bruised and scarred. Still beating, just graffitied; and bursting to show you what it has seen.
Graffitied Heart is a little book of rhymes and poems, going through the alphabet of existence. And, as with all lives, they can be humorous, horrifying and heartening. A compendium of complexities for your enjoyment.
drifting in & out of sleep
Trying to remember where it all began, when I first started to feel this way. Is this real, or am I still asleep? The hypnagogic state of uncertainty. Knowing the unfamiliar through the transitional magnitude of moments. Come with me, follow the path through snow covered lands into churches of splendour that play out a life steeped in love and lonely anger. Stay a while, and leave me where you find me; lying in bed and thinking of you, as I drift in and out of sleep…
Charting the spiral and ascension into something beyond, Drifting in and out of sleep is a mix of stories and poems which bleed into one another over space, time and mortality. Starting in the snow covered forests of unknowing-ness, it traces the steps that mirror life; through emotional dependence, God, love and coming to the ever reaching self-absorption of space.
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a substitute for god: religion & film
This study looks at the relationship religion has with film, looking closely at selective motion pictures; ‘The Passion of the Christ’, ‘The Exorcist’, ‘The Last Temptation of Christ’, ‘Agnes of God’ and ‘Jesus Christ Superstar’. Incorporating attitudes with audience reception and interpretation, along with the cultural importance and relevance in contemporary film.
hope is irresistible
Here is a little book of hope, a little slice of light to help your potato grab the illumination it needs to thrive and grow.
ghosts by proxy
This collection of poems tackles human emotions that range from the fantastic to the absurd, telescoped in to one rendering through life and love, and all that is in between.
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static dreams vol I & II
Shadows twist over our night terrors, bringing with them more tales of haunted pasts, hidden futures, broken promises, and the blood necessary to hold it all together. Where a plot of land seeks to have its grisly appetite sated in return for rich rewards. Where a faceless man stands watching helplessly as the lives of those around him slip past through the years, ever-repeating, always connected yet separate. And where a pair of boys come face to face with the dark secrets of their sleepy seaside town, their own initiation rite now unavoidable. Light the candles and say your prayers, this night may just smother you.
Or keep your eyes wide open, for it might be your salvation from these distorted static dreams. Featuring nine dark short stories by Patrick Walts, River Dixon & tara caribou, Sam Kirk, Christopher Allen Waldrop, M. Ennenbach, Mark Towse, Chris Nelson, Bobby Blade and Mark Ryan.